Will this ever stop?

I don't think so.

My brother's one and only love, Beth (and her friends) dropped by this afternoon. We talked for several minutes. The usual, hi and hello. How are you and how was school. When my mom got home, she showed Beth and friends some of kuya's stuff. Some of which I haven't seen or at least read, for that matter. I saw this booklet which was given to us (I have one also) a year ago during our seminar. Btw, we (kuya and I) attended a some kind of unleashing your highest potential seminar. I never got to read his notes there in real detail. He just tells me some of the things he puts there. I guess I really didn't bother. It's kind of personal. He wrote there this and really, again, melted my heart. "Tin is the closest person I can talk to". What am I supposed to feel diba? GOD. I was in awe. I never thought he would write that. He's never been that vocal with his feelings. He just shows it through his actions but he never really tells it to you. I should know him better diba? But this was something. . . . aww. Diba? Okay, I held back my tears, didn't want to cry again.

Browsing through the pages, I saw this poem. I CAN REALLY REALLY RELATE WELL WITH IT.

If I Only Knew

If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly and pray to the Lord
your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time I'd see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss, and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice
lifted up in praise,
I would videotape each action and word so I could play
them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time, I would spare an extra
minute or two to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would know I do.

But just in case I might be wrong and today is all I get.
I'd like to say how much I love you and I hope you'll never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone young and old alike,
and today might be the last chance for you to get hold
of your loved ones tight.

So if you are waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day
that you didn't take extra time for a smile, a hug or a kiss,
and you were too busy to grant someone what turned out
to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today and
whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them and
that you'll always hold them dear.

Take time to say "I love you,"
"I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or
"It's okay."

And if tomorrow never comes,
will have no regrets about today.

*****
Anyway, enought with this. As I've said, I just know, this feeling will never go away. I miss him. I terribly miss him.

Let's all greet Trixie Segundo a HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! <3 Yeah yeah. This young lady turns 15 today. Whatchasay? Hey you Soulmate, love you so. I know you know that ;)

What's up tomorrow?
THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY! We're off to Eastwood. See ya there! <3

--our friggin' mouse is starting to deteriorate. UGH? Tapos speaker namin sira. So what about our computer is slowly rotting :)) ANYWAY.
*Sayonara*